Szerelmemért föláldozom Az életet, Szabadságért föláldozom Szerelmemet.
--Petőfi Sándor
生命誠可貴，愛情價更高，若為自由故，兩者皆可拋。
Liberty, love!
These two I need.
For my love I will sacrifice life,
For liberty I will sacrifice my love.

 

What is real liberty, what is freedom, why is it such attractive, of great importance?
When being a child I only feel that losing freedom is just having lots of homework to do, bounded by repeated text copying or memorizing, and no playtime. As growing a little elder I learn from my teacher its definition that is lifetime outside of the prison. And later on, gradually, I realize that liberty is the state I can do every thing I want, and of cause, inevitably, as I hadn’t realized that liberty is still confined by law or moral regulars, I “paid” a lot for my “unrestricted” freedom, which might be called as the pain of growing. Then years passing by quickly, I started to find in the mirror a mature figure of me, begin to know the component of democracy in liberty, and began to learn to cherish the freedom that is at the great cost of a great number of lives of our predecessors in this land. Now as I’ve covered one third of my lifetime journey, pretending to ignore the wrinkles that are piling on my face, there are more understandings to the poem. What is liberty, the authentic liberty? It is a status of soul of complete free, without any bothering. So there is no necessity to waste too much time on social relationship handling, no necessity to be depressed to the countless gloom from the beloved, no necessity to be lured by luxury lifestyle, and no necessity to daydream, to satisfy the vanity, to be self-indulgent in sex or drug or alcohol or power. It’s kind of similar to creation, my thought can reach any mysteries it has never been to, and the only limitation in-between is my poor knowledge.

 

To the recent state of art, the mechanism of self-satisfaction tells us it is nothing but the increase of Dopamine in our hypothalamus. But how could we be kidnapped by these “no necessity”, merely for the increase of dopa. I’ve been trying to get rid of these “no necessity”, as a result it is always too hard for me to reach the free soul, and in vain most of the time. Besides, I’m too addicted in applying the excuse of “addiction”.

 

Anyway, I’ve been trying, to keep my thought clear and independent, to keep my sight open and penetrating, and to approach the soul of free. That’s why I am hiding in the campus, keeping single, only because freedom matters too much to me!

2009.3.22
It’s meant to be rainy or cloudy, but we are lucky enough to embrace the golden sun and azure sky, though happened to be “堵神”again when the traffic jam almost driving me crazy. Finally, here we come again, Jiu-Xi, with empty belly and bags full of raw materials that have been pretreated for roasting. Unlike any other gathering before, this time, it is a bunch of single guys who are unfamiliar to each other. Thanks to Hjwy, a lonely single girl who collects her female friends and sets up this party, and Hanjj who seeks and brings his nice male friends, in order to couple these two single groups. As the producer, director and editor of this TV show, actually I’m the one that most other guys should appreciate, coz it’s me who is skilful in cooking and baking, has them enjoying a toasting feast that they had ever been part of.
Look at the charcoal, which is turning red, emitting heat.
See the angel wings, angel thighs, shining on the grill.
Feel the goluptious smell of the golden croaker.
And the potatoes, the shashliks, the fruit, bla bla
It’s in vein to accurately describe the taste of our roast products, which is far beyond excellent. Don’t you know the important ingredient of our pickle liquid? Yes, it’s love. And the secret one? Sorry, secret is just secret.

 

fresh air, spreading tree, turquoise lake, charming girls, handsome boys, cool day!

Diarrhea, also spelled diarrhoea (see spelling differences), is characterized by frequent loose or liquid bowel movements. The spelling of "diarrhea" is an appropriation of the Greek "diarrhoia" meaning "a flowing through." commonly results from gastroenteritis caused by viral infections, parasites or bacterial toxins. In many cases of diarrhea, replacing lost fluid and salts is the only treatment needed.
Flatus (flatulence) is a mixture of gases in the digestive tract of mammals and human beings, and is expelled from the rectum in a process colloquially refereed to as “passing gas”, “breaking wind”, or “farting”. Nitrogen and carbon dioxide are the main constituents of flatus, along with methane and hydrogen which are flammable if adequate amounts are ignited. The odor smell in flatulence is caused by hydrogen sulphide and carbonyl sulphide, the result of protein breakdown. The noises commonly associated with flatulence are caused by the vibration of the anal sphincter and occasionally by the closed buttocks. The sound varies depending on the tightness of the sphincter muscle and velocity of the gas being propelled. Flatus is brought to the rectum by the same process which causes feces to descend from the large intestine, and may cause a similar feeling of urgency and discomfort. Nerve endings in the rectum usually enable individuals to distinguish between them, although loose stool can confuse the individual, and results in accidental defecation. The main sources of intestinal gas are exogenous and endogenous which is caused by microorganisms. Particularly in lactose intolerance cases, intestinal bacteria feeding on lactose gives rise to excessive gas production when milk or lactose-containing substances being consumed. Interestingly, low atmospheric pressure such as high-altitude flight and space program can initiate flatulence. So when scaling high mountains, don’t be scared about the High Altitude Flatus Expulsion.
These are two things that have been annoying me since my childhood, only because I am lactose intolerance. It’s the inability to metabolize lactose which is found in milk and other dairy products, because the required enzyme lactase is absent or insufficient in the intestinal system. With irregular bowl movement, I donnot know when the emergency will come, especially after a delicious feast. And there are too many embarrassing moments on bus or bike that I have to get off at any stop, rush into any building that may have washing rooms of free and clean, and rush out of great relax. When I am racking my brain in an important examination, it is such a horror of the feeling that my colon is going to give birth of something. As to the flatulence, I have been accustomed to loosing control of anal sphincter when talking with friends or strangers, sitting in quiet library, attending important conferences, in elevators, and etc. The most painful moment is when I am dreaming in my comfortable bed, there is only one nose to consume my physiological product of odor smell. And that’s why insomnia always falls on me.